*sneaks in*

WHOOPS! Been a while since I've updated. Life, I suppose. Let's see, let's see.

Ah, yes. All the Christmas shopping is complete, except for one more item which Mom and I are splitting. They're wrapped and under the tree. See?



Yeah. The penguins were already there. *grin*

Work's been steady. Nothing too crazy. Apparently the H1N1 vaccine is coming in this week, though, so I'm prepared to kill people. I mean... yeah, I mean kill people. I've actually started working on some of my Continuing Education credits. I've gotten four done. YAY! Go me.

My wonderful thirty something year old Zenith television has officially died. Let's have a moment of silence. It was so lovely and I miss it dearly. But! Mom's best friend gave me their old one since they just recently bought a new one. It's about the same size, too, and FREE so you can't beat that!

And probably the best news: I've lost ten pounds!! I'm eating smaller portions and stopped snacking throughout the day, which I think is the secret. I haven't done my WiiFit in about a week (shame!) but I think being on my feet everyday at work should count as exercise.

Other than work and Christmas stuff, I've pretty much spent all my spare time watching all my seasons of Psych, hehe. I heart that show more and more. I needs it back pls!

My HPDFW group did do a Cosplay day a few weeks ago, and I went as Flapjack, because it so makes sense! Check me out: Whimsical Flapjack



TeeHee. Sillay.

I restarted my WiiFit today. I have discovered that my board's scale is completely off - by like, 35 pounds! Ah, well. I actually did the strength training. Ouch! I was only able to do about 25 minutes after that S.T. Yeesh! Plus, my "trainer" kept telling me to visualize my ideal body while doing it, so I'm thinking of hanging up a few pics of Mariska Hargitay on the wall as inspiration. Y/N?

Let's see.

Halloween was fun. Eva and Dallas turned their house into a haunted house, and T.C. and I were set for duty of getting people in. I got to scream. A lot. And I was dressed like Flapjack, which rocked all.

Work's been fine, too. Our relief pharmacist, Laura, has left us, though. :o( She got an offer as a staff pharmacist at a store closer to her place, so she left. She didn't want to, though. Ah well. Jess and I plan to meet up with her every month or so for dinner. She's awesome. We already miss her. Our new guy's cool, though.

Oh! Saw The Men Who Stare At Goats and laughed my ass off. Want to see it again, because I swear I missed parts from laughing so hard.

Also got to see the inside of a radio station while it was going on. A friend of Mom's from high school leant her a computer since hers died and he's the control guy for an online show every week. Was pretty cool to see.

Exciting news! pennyrella had her baby on the 30th! Tobias Joel. He's so cute! I wish I were in England so that I can be the crazy American auntie. *babytalks Tobias*


And, to end, I want this drink:

Crystal Clear Cosmo
Gray Goose Vodka
Cointreau
White Cranberry Juice


You feel it after two sips, too. HA!

My first Internet from phone post. Epic.




Okay, so maybe not. I'm kind of sad that I never have anything to say here anymore.

Okay. Here goes.

pennyrella is a week late on getting that baby out of her! I'm super-stoked for her and and her hubby. If any two people deserve to have little ones on earth they do.

Anyway. ♥

Le sigh.

Life.

Gramma's getting worse by the day. Her memory is just shot. And I'm getting extremely frustrated by having to repeat myself every ten minutes. We even have boards on our door rooms and in the kitchen saying what day it is and where we are, but she still asks. It's very hard. It's keeping me down. Anytime when I'm not actively doing anything, I think about it. I love my Gramma so much I hate to see her go through this.

We are completely broke, too. We had to pay for a few groceries tonight mostly in change. Mom and I could have done without it, but Gramma can't.

Work is better than it was. I still have a couple issues with people not fully pulling their weight, but it's not bothering me quite as much as it was, and I've had no insane customers lately. A few rude ones, but that's fine. I think since all of our flu vaccine is gone, the crazies are too.

I did, however, have a great weekend. Saturday was our HPDFW Halloween party, where I went as Moaning Myrtle, full ghost face makeup and all. We had a blast, as usual, and we managed not to scare away the new people! The party ended about midnight, where we headed downtown to a big block party. The costumes we saw were incredible! It was like Dragon*Con, only outside and with more drunks. Super fun, even though we got there near the end. I did learn, however, that heels are not my friend.

It's nice to have an escape like that for a while.

Eckeltricity went out yesternight. Yay fun times. >.< Mom forgot to pay the bill. WHOOPS! Finally came on today around two in the afternoon.

And that's all she wrote.

I managed to do an hour on the Wii Fit today. Wee! I did the balance games for the first time. I still haven't touched the strength training, because OMG no. But it's still just uber-fun.

And I have new inspiration. I want to look like her:



For true.


OKay, I'm sure I won't, but y'know. Inspiration and all.

Work was... I don't know. Busy. Nobody particularly stood out. I've officially decided that closing sucks. I feel useless when all I'm doing is helping customers. Is that effed up? Hah. Probably, since I wouldn't have a job without customers.

I don't know. I'm sleepy. I've been in a slightly odd mood since work ended. I'm zoning out or something. Who knows.

Ever feel drunk when you're stone sober? Yeah. That.

OMG I have such a girl crush on Mariska Hargitay! She's so purdy. I's jealous. And a teensy bit tipsy.

I've been all creativeish again, making lots of SVU icons. I found a colour scheme I like and I'm using it obsessively. The cast deserves some orangey tint to them. Makes them all shiiiiiiiny. I ♥ SVU, liek woah!

Screw it. PICSPAM AGAIN!!











Also? While looking up images of Munch and Fin, I have forever been scarred by the fact that FUNCH exists and I CAN'T UNSEE WHAT I SEED! 0_0 Yipes.

I got the new TV Guide, which has my lovely Benson and Stabler on the cover, and they're totally BFFs. I want the pictures in it. NOW. But I can't find them online and I am sad. And too lazy to hook up the scanner, HA!

So, for now, I'll settle for this:




HAWT!!!

Made a crapload of Psych icons yesterday and today. I spam thee with them. NO CUT HAHAHAHA!!

Today was... better. Much better than I've been all week. I wound up waking up really early, about 4.45, and consequently stayed up a couple of hours worried that they didn't schedule anybody to cover my shift and that I'd be called in, but when I finally managed to fall back to sleep, I didn't wake up to the phone ringing.

I spent the rest of the day with Mom and Gramma. It was nice. Gramma's still having a hard time remembering from one minute to the next, but... well. I suppose it's inevitable.

I'm going to the doctor in the morning. Not a shrink. I'm not ready for that, even though I'm sure I need it.

For now I'm reverting. Toy Story's coming out tomorrow, and I treated myself by buying this:



I suppose I should get to sleep. Have to be up early.

Well, I'm officially on sick leave for my mental well-being. I'll be off the rest of this week until next Thursday.

My breakdown is getting worse. Customers kicked me over today. When Lee came in, I told him how I was feeling. He said that we'd talk with the store manager. With both of them I broke down and let everything come out. They recommended I take some time off. A month of disability was suggested, but that won't work. I'm the only one with a job at the moment and I can't afford the paycut for that time. I have fifteen sick days available and my store manager said I can take five in a row before it has to go to disability.

So. Five days off. I'll have to go to the doctor and will probably be placed on some new meds. Hopefully one for anxiety, since it's been severe the past few days. I'm back on my anti-depressants, and it will take about a week for them to kick back in fully.

I don't know anymore.

I'm having a really hard time this week.

Sunday was awful.

Mom went out and after several hours of Gramma asking where she was every single time she walked into the room, because she couldn't remember, I was really frustrated. So I tried calling Mom. I called her close to thirty times. At first I was angry, then I got panicked and freaked out. I had the worst panic attack I've ever had. I was screaming and crying so hard I couldn't breathe properly. It wouldn't stop.

And I had the thoughts that I haven't had in a long time. I wanted to hurt myself. I actually hit my head into the wall a couple of times. I didn't know what to do.

And I couldn't get ahold of Mom, which just kept making it worse.


It took me a very long time to calm down.


Monday was... okay. I was on the verge of crying all day.

Today sucked.

I freaked out at work with another panic attack. A customer yelled at me. I did nothing to her except explain a situation and she yelled and freaked out at me and wanted to talk to the manager and called me an idiot and treated me like shit for explaining her insurance wouldn't pay. I got so upset. I hyperventilated. It took me almost an hour before I was calm enough to face more customers, and Mom had to bring me a Xanax.


I'm still crying.

Commence dying, kthx.






♥ Christopher Meloni

Dangit! The last thing I need is yet another show to obsess over! FlashForward was brilliant! I was afraid it was going to be *too* much like Lost, but this is just... WOW. Blew my mind.

Also, I'm highly amused that three Brits are playing Americans, and two other Brits are in it as well. Although, ( SPOILER!! )


Three day weekend. YAY. Might go and drink some winey wine. I has cheap stuff.

Hmm.

*goes for wine*

*gropes Jack Davenport*

With the flu comes the crazy sick people. And they're mean this year.

I worked the weekend with my pharmacy manager. We did about 225 on Saturday. That may not seem like a lot, but with only two of us, it's overwhelming. He's really cool about letting me fill while he covers the front, because he knows that I can get things done faster back there, and I come up when he needs me. Not so much this time. He kept getting busy with people and flu shots that he wasn't able to review until about once every two hours, which meant that forty prescriptions would come out in one go. And they'd have to be filled, so I'd stay back and work on them as much as I could, but I kept running back and forth. The people on Saturday were super super nice, though, and knew we were busy and told us later times for finishing and we really appreciated them.

Sunday brought the douches.

I had at one point about six people waiting for flu shots. My pharmacy manager was working on getting all theirs out and filled so that we could poke them and get them out quickly, but it still takes time. An old lady who smells like a chimney came by for a refill. I told her that it would be twenty minutes.

"Why so long?!"

"We're doing flu shots, ma'am, and we have to account for the time."

"Well, I'm going to look around the store and come back, but it's NOT going to be twenty minutes."

Crazy lady. After that encounter, I was stuck at the front, not able to fill anything. She came back after about ten or twelve minutes and I told her that her medicine wasn't ready.

"How do YOU know?"

"Ma'am, I haven't had the chance to fill anything since you dropped it off."

"Where's the pharmacist? He's not doing flu shots."

"He's in the back preparing the needles."

Two seconds later, Lee walks out the door and sits down to poke people.

While this is going on, another man came to drop off. His prescription is for Wellbutrin 150. Wellbutrin comes in two forms: XL and SR. I explain that we'll need to call the doctor to verify which kind he'll need. He starts giving me greif about how it's his anti-smoking med and he can't go a day without it or he'll go nuts blah blah blah. He's had it before, so I say that we can look in his profile and base it off that. So I go to write his birthday at the top - no name on the prescription.

"Oh, well, sir, I'm sorry, but the doctor didn't write your name on the prescription, and we can't fill that."

"IT'S MY PRESCRIPTION! Here's my driver's license!"

"Sir, I'm sorry, but it's invalid."

"STOP BEING AN ASS!! I NEED MY MEDICINE!"

To keep from yelling at the douche, I holler over to Lee, "Can we fill a prescription without a name on it?" to which he answers (DUH) "No, it's invalid."

The guy throws a hissy fit and I walk away, and the old lady freaks out on me saying she's going to Kroger. I tell her she's "more than welcome to, but as you can see, we are VERY busy right now" and went to help the drive-thru.

I ended up getting so upset by everything that I had to leave the pharmacy for a cry. Jackasses. And of course if they complain, I'm at fault.


And then yesterday! I had an older lady and gentleman come for flu shots. I was perfectly fucking pleasant to them as I added them in and tried to bill Medicare. His rejected, saying his birthday was not what they had on file.

"His birthday is 9-11-13, Ma'am?"

"Yes."

"Medicare is saying that they have something different."

"It's always been 9-11-13."

"Hold on, let me try something."

I reverse the date. Sometimes that's all it is. Still rejected.

"Hmm, well, I can't bill Medicare unless I have the birthdate that they have on file."

"Isn't it ON his Medicare card?"

"No, ma'am, they don't put them on the cards."

The man is standing there and can't hear very well. He asks what's going on.

"I don't know, she's in a bad mood!"

"Ma'am, I'm just telling you the situation - " to which she puts up her arms and backs away, as if I was about to hit her, the fucking bitch.

Lee says that we'll call Medicare if they give us a few minutes.

We've got five or six people in line now, and we move on to them and I called Jess up to keep me from exploding on someone. I get stuck helping a sweet guy with his insurance and I'm feeling marginally better when I hear Lee tell the lady that Medicare has the birthday on file as 8-11-13.

"Oh, yes, that's it!"



DID I GET A FUCKING APOLOGY? HELLLLLL NOOO!!



ADHGFIKLGKhjwrg'lJHWRGLKHJSAFDKLJ *screams*


I HATE PEOPLE.

I ♥ my new phone, LIKE WOAH!!

Tis a Blackberry Storm and it's lovely. We got it last night before I even got my paycheck. YAY for running a debit as credit to avoid overdraft fees, muahahaha! *evil grin* It's so much fun. Of course, I don't actually *talk* on the phone, but MEH. SHINY!


Work has been insanely busy lately. Flu season is definitely upon us. All of our pharmacists are immunizers, so there are people coming all the time for the shots, keeping us crazy. And I'm having some, ahem, issues with certain staff members not doing what they should be doing and having to clean up after them. *eye twitch*

Nothing much else. Playing and such. Need another HPDFW outing. I can has pls?

I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD! TRUFAX!

My dear, lovely, wonderful friend out in England, the OhSoGreat pennyrella, has sent me... THE DAMNED UNITED!!! *bounces around* It's PAL format, but, again, because I have THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD, my lovely pal from HPDFW, Kim, will rip it for me so that I can play it on my DVD player here! WOOOO!!

My computer will actually play a Region 2 format, but I can only change the setting a certain number of times. I'm still debating on if I want to screencap from the actual movie or copy. Suggestions?

BUT OH EM GEE I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!</p>

This pretty much sums up my entire vacation:




More when I'm home tomorrow evening.

*sneaks in*

Hello.

Let's see.

August.

Fifth was my 23rd birfday, which I celebrated with awesome friends at the Magic Time Machine. There was much laughter and silliness, and good times were had. I got to see some folks I hadn't seen in a year (Lauren! Kendrick! Katherine! Who's having another baby!) and it's also great that IHOP doesn't care how long you stay there at night as long as you order something. I also got a bunch of cool stuff. *grin*

Work, work, work, work.

August 12th was my co-worker Jess's bachelorette party. We went to La Bare. TeeHeeHee. My MOM used to go to La Bare. She joined us. HA!

Yeah, so, this reeeeeeeeeeally hot guy was serving shots and he asked us about five times before I finally gave in and decided to get one. I ended up getting a shot called *ahem*RoyalFuck*ahem* and I naively thought it was just, y'know, a SHOT. Well, I also got a lap dance. Heheheeeeeee. I also drank said shot from the dude's mouth (it was served in a test tube and he held one end while I drank).

Needless to say, I had TWO shots that night, HAHAHA! Hot.

AND I got pulled up on stage and had a nice looking black guy get freaky on me. I giggled. A lot.


Work, work.

The fifteenth was Jess's wedding, which was absolutely beautiful! Very small and simple, but the service had me bawling. Jess's dress was gorgeous, the reception was very fun, and it was just great. I'm so happy for her!

From there I made my way to downtown Dallas, after much screaming and getting lost because driving in downtown is a bitch, and met up with Kim and some others at the burlesque show once more. We hung out at the bar until they closed, then hit Kim's place from some late night/early morning shrimp and swimming then watched some Wayne's World. There were far more this time than last time, but I did bail out earlier than before. I got home around seven.

Slept for a few hours, then headed off for an HPDFW meeting, which was, as always, tons of fun, then five hours at a British pub with many peeps.

I love my friends. *grin*


AND I LEAVE NEXT THURSDAY FOR COLORADO!!! SQUEE!

Meh.

I've mulled over Half-Blood Prince the past few days, and after three viewings, this is my general concenses.

( The Good )

( The Bad )

( The Ugly )


BUT. After a while, I've come to the conclusion that if it's good enough for JKR, it should be good enough for me. After all, she does have final say over what has to be in, so if she felt that certain things could be left out, I suppose it will have to do.

Overall, the movie itself is great. I really enjoyed it and am planning on seeing it many times more. It's just that considering this is my FAVOURITE of the series, I'm very possesive and have unbearably high expectations for it.